Whitenoise Snowfall

The weather in the UK is horrible right now. It’s freezing cold and it’s raining  (the sort of rain that soaks you without you realising). I’m up to wearing 4+ layers and keeping my scarf on the entire school day. At home I curl up in my pajamas with a fleece blanket. Even then I get cold. It’s horrible and annoying. I think it’s warming up back home in SA too, so all I can think about is how it’s 20+ degrees back there and I’m stuck here in the cold.

Life is OK. Not amazing and I’m in a bad mood today because I’m cold and I’m tired and my teacher is on my back to hand in a reply slip for a letter I really don’t want to give to my parents (aka report) and I would seriously love to speak back to him but I just can’t do that. I don’t get why we have to get out parents to sign to say they received letters. Or rather I wish we didn’t. And I wish he wasn’t the sort of teacher that cared. Everyone else tutors probably don’t give a damn. It’s like back in year 7 through to 11 my tutor teacher was lovely but he was so strict. No bags on table, makeup checks, shirts tucked in and all sorts. I got a detention for something really stupid like not giving a reply slip in and yet everyone else in other tutors gets away with it. It’s not fair. (here ends immature no-valid-arguments rant.)

School is boring too. I like the people I’m around though which makes things a bit better. Also in physics first period my friend brought in cakes for us (so i had cake for breakfast and yes that’s bad but I don’t care. it was nice) and then chemistry we spent half the lesson coloring in which is a lot more fun that it should be and very relaxing. I also like having free periods at convenient times. Today I had one third period before lunch which meant I could go home and laze about. I should have been doing work but instead I sat on YouTube and watched the Jiwhaza episode with Donghae. Certain people are not made for variety. Like Seungri because of how embarrassed he makes you feel for him, and then Donghae because he is so shy and quiet and for some reason people allow him to fade into the background.

Anyway, I have an excuse for coming home and doing nothing. My mom disturbed my sleep with an inane argument with my dad at 6:30 so I ended up sleeping really weird for an hour or so before I got up and combined with a late night I was feeling pretty rubbish.  At home I ate something and rested so felt much better after lunch.

Other thing that is really bugging me the most right now is my university application is stuck in the system and I’m starting to get annoyed. But I’m mainly annoyed at myself for not getting it done earlier. Here are people getting offers and interviews and I’ve not even sent mine. I’m so stupid putting it off. Should have done it in the holidays! I just hope it can go through by the end of this week (just like last week the goal was the end of that week and the week before and so on and so forth). I don’t have much faith in my university application either; I wouldn’t accept me to university so why should they? And then there is the whole case of interviews. I’m terrible at talking and expressing my ideas. Further I’ve put certain things on my personal state,ment which although aren’t untrue are the sort of things I wouldn’t know to to put into words or elaborate on. It’s worrying :/

And with that, I am going to watch a movie. A film called Now I… which is a Japanese movie about a hikikomori who through a serious of events changes or something like that. The reviews I’ve read (all two of them) talk about how amazing it is and I’m curious to see it because of it’s theme. I usually dislike movies where the main characters get saved by someone else randomly entering their lives  because how unrealistic is that? But if done well it should be OK. If the movie turns out boring then I can just watch more Korean variety shows or VS arashi. Homework? Revision? Yeah…

Very last thing: another new layout at honest lies! It is basically the same as the last one, I just wanted it a bit less messy and a bit more colorful. I’m not entirely sure if this is an improvement or not, but I like the colored boxes. I am continuing to put an effort in doing things I haven’t done before and I don’t think I’ve really done multicolored before. And also the sidebar on the left. I tend to dislike putting my sidebar on the left, but it’s there now and so it’s staying.

I still think tumblr style layouts are really hard because it’s so easy to make them appear messy and hard to read.  One day the themes in my head will come out the way I want when I code them. One day.