Honest Lies

I signed up for flavors.me. View my page here. I was bored and as I was editing my profile on one of various forums I visit, trying to decide what website to link to, I came to the conclusion I wanted to link to more than one. Thus my flavors.me profile was born. Isn’t it pretty? I wasn’t exactly sure how flavors.me worked but it’s actually really simple and the results are extremely pretty. It was a lot of fun to make my profile and I admit to spending a little too much time playing with it. Haven’t actually connected any of my accounts and I don’t think I want to yet. It’s prettier with just the text anyway.

I am not sure of my username though. I have a few online identities. Chizuru and Kahori are two I have only used once or twice and I admit to disliking both. My main ones are Riyuu and Yesung/Yehsung. Yehsung is one of my Super Junior biases, and I admit I’m undecided as to whether it’s good or not to use a celebrity name, even if it’s just a stage name. Sometimes I think it borders on being extremely lame/pathetic/silly. But definitely undecided on that matter and I use it anyway, where I can (the fact that more often than not it’s taken actually reassures me I’m not that lame). Riyuu I have used more and as far as I know means reason in Japanese, and I love it because it sounds pretty and it’s one of my favourite songs.

In conclusion: a) choosing usernames is hard. b) making random new accounts (here, there and everywhere) is fun

Went to see Avatar last night with sister, her boyfriend and his brother. Being around them wasn’t as awkward as I thought it would be. The film was stunning, but cliche and predictable and bordering on OTT. It also went on forever. Saw it in 3D which was amazing, but made my eyes feel a bit wierd later.

So, last day of 2009! It’s wierd to think it is already 2010 in other parts of the world. So here is the obligitary end of year post, though I don’t think I did this last year (and if I did that post is deleted alongside everything else from 2008).

Stole this from amajing and 여기 저기 fresh. Some questions removed because they are irrelevant to me and some lumped together because I wanted to answer them that way. And then I took some questions from this survey.

LONG POST IS LONG

In summary: 2009 was OK and I hope 2010 is OK or ideally really good (because I deserve a really good year ^^).

HAPPY NEW YEAR!! ^___________^

→ Do you ever get emails you have no idea how to reply to? it’s so awkward caus i just keep staring, trying to find words which just won’t come. then days will pass and I still wouldn’t have replied. Then I just feel mean. (and I’m imagining this person being like me- checking their emails expectantly for a reply and then feeling disappointed- when they probably don’t even care…)

→ The first point is similiar to the feeling receiving a comment (yay!) and then wanting to reply or give one back but  honestly just not knowing what to say (gdi). Or posting a comment and only realising a typo afterwards. That is pretty bad.

→ It is really bad when you forget to send out Christmas thank you text messages to grandparents on Christmas or like boxing day because the further away from Christmas you get the bitchier and more ungrateful you look. to reply and do the right thing even if too late, or not reply and just hope they also forget (though they probably won’t). It’s already the 29th and I don’t know what to do about the fact I haven’t yet thanked my grandparents for the presents they gave me :/ (and i honestly just forgot and keep forgetting)

→ Receiving presents you don’t particularly like or want. it’s like you have to act happy, but you suck at faking and then you just feel so freakin’ guilty because you know they can tell you aren’t that happy and they probably wanted you to be like :D when you are like :| instead. and not just Christmas. Any time someone goes out of their way to buy you something and no matter what, at the end of the day you just can’t feel as happy as you should about it because you really don’t want or need the item. makes you feel so awful, like such a horrible ungrateful person.

→ This started out with one bullet point and soon branched into four. My life is filled with way too much awkwardness and why did I do/say that?! moments. :/

I really wish that tumblr layouts could be imported over to wordpress. Or rather there were more wordpress layouts like tumblr layouts. If there are the wordpress theme viewer is so bloated with crap I don’t think I’d find them. Anyway- I was looking through the layouts on tumblr and some tumblr layouts are so much prettier than wordpress. Simple but gorgeous and functional. And unique; certain tumblr layouts present a very interesting way of presenting a website. Especially cargo and…well cargo. But there are other nice ones too. I just fell in love with cargo and the more I look at it the more I think it will take alot of different scripts to get it over to wordpress- probably alot of javascript and I can’t do anything with java :/

Sometimes, I just feel so sick of this website. I just look at it and I just hate everything about it- the layout, my posts, my stupid about page. Like I could just delete everything, cancel my hosting plan and move permenantly to a free site. When I think it through I know I could never let go of my hosting (not after begging my dad so much for it) and having such freedom with my websites but still.

On saying that right now my hormones are causing me to RAGE and get extremly sad all at once which may have alot to do with my hate towards most things right now. I don’t even get it.

I’m on half term at the moment, and as predicted my grand plan of getting up early and revising fell through without every beginning. I got as far as setting my alarm, but I just sleep through it now. Getting up late, spending time on the internet and going to bed. My life, it’s so very interesting.

Also, my mother is still annoying me. And my father is home from his business trip to South Africa (home!) and he brought gifts from family and food from back home which is good, and it’s nice to see him which is good. I’m waiting for him to get on my back about studying though. I feel uncomfortable around my parents. And now there are two of them to deal with after a 4 weeks+ dealing with one, who goes out alot and leaves me alone. I like being alone and could really do with it right now.

And… I got my Yesung necklace. My mom said it was the most disgusting thing ever, but i love it. I got free super junior stickers too :D

OMG. Twitter is not working!!!

I’ve been trying to tweet for the past hour or more and twitter loads it just doesn’t send my damn tweets throught. The first thing I think when twitter is being slow is “must tweet frustration” which is such a vicious cycle XD Though seriously whats with twitter today? Earlier livejournal didn’t load for like an hour as well. Internet is so wierd. Atleast youtube is working. If all three were down my life would be officially over. I’m pathetic, yes. I have nothing to do with my life! Although I’m starving and desperatly need the willpower to go downstairs and cook something. Instead of sitting here trying to update twitter and reading fanfiction, I should you know get a drink and something to eat. I swear I’ve not had a proper meal in days! just been snacking here and there (lets see, do biscuits count as food?) I’m hungry~ So very hungry…

Boredom makes me hungrier -_-