Fear
It’s 1:30am and I don’t want to go to bed because I’m scared of being alone in the dark. Lets so how long I can last (3am? 4am? All night?)
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It’s 1:30am and I don’t want to go to bed because I’m scared of being alone in the dark. Lets so how long I can last (3am? 4am? All night?)
Me and my sister don’t have a middle name, and our names start with the same letter so our initials are the same. Thus getting post addressed to miss C S**** is completly confusing. Sadly it is more likely to be to my sister as…I don’t really get post. [But it sucks getting all excited seeing post thinking it is adressed to me and instead it is my sisters :( The parents should have thought ahead a bit.]
And lol my mood seems to suggest I’m really annoyed about this when I’m just annoyed about things/life in general. Having one of those “FML/I hate my life” days and no amount of chocolate is enough to make me feel better.
Lately I haven’t been able to concentrate on anything. Instead, I indulge my mind with mindless activities such as being on the internet and doing nothing productive, daydreaming, and sleeping. Whenever I try to focus on things that I should, such as studying, my mind just wanders, drifting off to places I would rather not visit. When that happens it’s like everything comes crashing down at me at once: life, questions, the endless search for answers, and everything in between. It’s so much easier to delete and organize files on my computer, arrange the clothes in my drawer, make sure the apartment is organize, or make plans that I’ll never get done than to fall victim to the forest in my mind. Each time I visit that dark, confusing, and lonesome place I get lost and it’s so hard to find my way back. Perhaps what I need is a reminder of some sort, something I can use to make checkpoints, so that when I do get lost I can quickly get back to where I originally was. I think of what I want to become in the future, think about the people close to me, remember my dreams. I use those things to mark my place in the woods, but when it rains it rains so hard and when it gets dark I am blind, so I get lost again. I just need something in my life that’ll keep me rooted to reality and my goals because clearly I’m not strong enough to do it alone and will power isn’t working.
Taken from A Party in my Head. It’s a beautifully written post that I can totally empathise with…
When things change, isn’t it better to get used to the new situation quickly? If that’s the case, it’s better to know what you have to do. Rejecting everything and doing things half-heartedly won’t make it any easier.
Princess Princess, Kouno Tooru
I’M GOING TO SEE DIR EN GREY IN TWO DAYS!!! And apparently they are singing the FINAL and conceived sorrow…and dozing green… I can’t wait!! Not only do I see my sister this weekend, but I get to see Dir en Grey. And if I take enough money I can buy Uroboros and get it SIGNED. Like, meet them. Possibly. Hopefully. So awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Today in maths whilst working out the variance I was presented with the sum 4-22. So feeling genuinly stumped and truly being unable to figure out whether 2 squared was indeed 4 I turned to my friend and asked her in all seriousness “What is two squared?” and it echoed across our row and everyone laughed and I too realised just how stupid that was, even though I still need the answer confirming.
It’s a good thing it’s the weekend now isn’t it? XD