Everything is a little hectic right now. Been quite busy past few days- actually busy mixed with a lot of procrastinating from what I need to do. Got my hair cut, which is both weird and awesome, and been running around trying to gather all my things together, trying to find a suitcase (a quest and a half) and trying to organize my free days apart from the tour. Yes, so I leave for Japan tomorrow. I don’t feel ready! And I don’t feel organized! I’m a bit AHHHHH about the whole thing, for lack of better description. Nerves, worry, dread, anticipation, fear and a little bit of excitement. To be honest it hasn’t really hit me yet. When we went to the airport to get my Yen it sort of hit me, but otherwise…it just feels really surreal. I’m going to Japan tomorrow. I just can’t really believe it. I hope Japan is as awesome as I think it is when I get there. Like I know it isn’t perfect and most likely there are gonna be things I hate but I want it to be fun despite those things. I am so nervous about this.
Also it’s 12 hours to Tokyo. That’s the same time as it gets to Cape Town so technically, technically I should be used to it. But I’m not. I am not looking forward to getting up at 6am tomorrow and then the whole travelling thing. I’m going to die on the plane tommorow. And I’ve never been through such an extreme time zone change before either D:
Anyway. I am rambling and this entry makes no sense as I am in a rush. Sorry! But I need to go to bed soon. And I still have things to do. (Left things to the last minute, like always.) See you in 10 days~ (though I very likely will be updating my twitter!)
Met up with my friends for late lunch today at a little cafe in the village I live. The place was going to close at 2:00pm and we got there 1:30pm so in the end we just had cake and drink and then left. We went back to my place for a little bit and continued to chat. They sounded like they have been doing a lot more with their lives than I am right now, and far more in the loop (aka up to date with each others and our other friends lives). I felt glad to see them, of course, but more than a little awkward. Do you ever feel lost when others are talking? Like you might as well not be there. Maybe it was my fault. I was kind of too quiet, perhaps. Oh but I got presents! My one friend bought my Crush by Richard siken (I love love love his poetry and asked her to buy it :D) and my other friend got me this Very Hungry Caterpillar Mug (well, not the one shown. it’s just a random pic off flickr). It’s one of my favourite children’s stories and I have wanted this mug since forever. Must say, the presents I’ve gotten for my 18th birthday have been really awesome ♥
It was my birthday on the 16th of July! My 18th birthday. :D That’s right- I am an adult now! (Yeah, I don’t get how that is possible either. I don’t feel grown up at all. I don’t even feel all that mature really)
The actual day was spent quietly and like most others. I got up the usual time, did the usual things. Definitely didn’t feel any different. I got some nice presents- money for Japan, cute fluffy toys, beautiful jewellery. Mainly small things but I’m not complaining as I am also getting a trip to Japan and hopefully a new phone in a month or two (depending on how things work out). In the evening went for a pub meal with the family and then much later we had cake, with eighteen candles, and my parents sang to me. Best bit of any birthday- cake and candles :D
I’ve had a really nice birthday! Not wild or crazy, but fun. Tried a few different things like wearing tiny dresses, going to clubs, drinking alcohol, eating at Thai restaurant, using chopsticks. Not all successful but hey, at least I tried.
I feel so happy at the moment. And shock horror, even a little confident in myself. I know I never say such things on the blog so let me write it again- I am actually really happy right now. : )
Shinee’s Lucifer is amazing. I kind of loved the concept photos despite some of the questionable fashion and was looking forward to seeing what would come out of it. They didn’t disappoint. The MV is pretty typical [dance shot- solo shot- dance shot etc] but I love the dance and they look gorgeous, especially Taemin with his beautiful long hair. Oh Taemin looks so beautiful *_* The song is catchy and sexy with awesome lyrics and I have been repeating it since I heard it. I also appreciate that the engrish isn’t quite as bad as in Ring Ding Dong. Still doesn’t make much sense, but at least it doesn’t make me giggle like the immature teen I still kind of am (come on Ring Ding dong? Fantastic Elastic? It sounds so wrong)
On Friday I went to London for the day! I had to get up at 6:30am but for some reason I woke up at 5am and then couldn’t get back to sleep. So I got up at 5:30am in the morning, after going to bed at midnight and not falling asleep until about 2am. I was exhausted. This was the first thing to go wrong in a very short amount of time. I then discovered that I had an allergic reaction to either the moisturiser or the shaving cream I used the night before in an effort to make my legs smooth and hairless for the day. This hasn’t happened to me in years. I was so pissed off. I thought that finally, as I was growing up, my skin was becoming less sensitive. Clearly I was wrong. I got ready, putting on my new clothes despite the fact my legs were now decorated with a lovely red rash. I was determined to wear my new outfit, thinking I would like to look pretty once and that it was going to be a hot day and I didn’t want to cover up too much. Upon seeing my outfit my dad remarked that it looked like I was still in my pajamas, and any remaining confidence I had was crushed. Arrived at the station, tired and feeling quite self conscience. Decided to wear my hair loose, though typically the one time I wear it down it is all flat and hideous.
All those little things put me in such a bad mood and made me anxious for the day. I was already nervous going all the way to London by myself and by that point I had come to the conclusion that either the day was going to continue to suck, or after a horrible morning it would pick up and become a nice day.
It’s so hard to talk about this in a coherent manner. This PV is so cute. So cheesy but adorable. They all look so good too. Heechul and Yesung’s parts made me flail like an idiot (Heechul is so much more gorgeous dressed casually, and when he smiles instead of putting on some kind of attitude). All of their riduculous romantic gestures made me laugh, in the good way. I just…don’t know what to say. It’s just too adorable. I was so moody a moment ago but now I am just sitting here grinning like a fool. Totally disliked this song at first, but you know the PV and the performances have made me adore it. It makes me so happy ♥
Honest Lies is the tumblr style blog of Catherine, a 17 year old girl residing in the UK. This blog mainly contains my personal rantings and ramblings, too many pictures of Super Junior and video's of my favourite songs.
