Honest Lies – Page 66 – "Okay, so I'm the dragon. Big deal. You still get to be the hero."

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When Seungri came out with strong baby I had a hard time taking him seriously. Now? I think he could really pull it off. I’m suddenly finding him very attractive in his latest videos- VVIP and What to Do (and all the promotional material. Seriously, Seungri. You look so different but in a totally good way). Not to mention the pvs themselves are pretty damn good – the choreography is slick and yg really knows how to put together used concepts into something interesting and stylish. My instant love for this mini album isn’t just for looks- the mini album is really good in itself. I think What to Do is my favourite thus far, but VVIP is a lot of fun too. The only track I instantly dislike is the OUTRO ballad as I’m not a ballad fan- I’m very picky about what slow songs I listen to. Anyway I’m loading it up on my mp3 right now so i can listen to it all of tomorrow on the train. I’ve been dying for something new to listen to when commuting; listening to the same things over and over every day sucks!

I don’t usually watch Korean dramas. I usually start Korean dramas (or Japanese or Taiwanese dramas) and then give up after the first episode, or maybe get a ‘whole’ 5 episodes into it. Very rarely do I start a drama and actually finish it. Recent examples of dramas I enjoyed so much I actually finished would be My country Calls, Hotaru no Hikaru 2 and the woman who still wants to marry. I also recently finished Secret Garden and I admit at one point I was pretty obsessive about this drama- more than others- I’d watch previews and read spoilers, watch the raw, watch the quick release sub, then watch it a third time with a better sub. The first few episodes of this drama were golden. OK, the episodes where Joo won and Ra im switched were golden; I haven’t laughed that hard in ages. However at some point I think this drama went from awesome to just OK for me. I realised around episode 10 that although I was having fun watching it, there was little point to it. Nothing was really happening and nothing really made sense. Around episode 15 (was it?) the excessive ridiculous melodrama hit and made me go “What?”. Then the last episode was so fluffy and adorable and I was grinning like a fool whilst also being like “What?”. Really, in the end this drama makes me conflicted. Some bits were so good and others were so ridiculous (and well, not-so-good). I don’t know what to feel about it! I understand the hype around this drama, for once I understand the hype. It wasn’t a waste of my time and I enjoyed this drama, and hey I finished it! The actors and actresses, all of them, made this drama as well as the pretty cinematography and some of the script was damn awesome (coffee kiss anyone?). Not to mention the amazing OST. But I think its in some ways it was disappointing simply because it could have been so much more. It was fun whilst it lasted but I’m quickly forgetting all about it.

(Also Oska/Taesun fangirl here and may I just say I clung to that ship even when it had already sunk… around about the time when taesun was introduced T___T Taesun ended up being such a plot device, if that. T__T )

Everyday

Woke up at 9am. Left the house at 10:15am. Walk into the train station and the station master was in the process of moving a bookshelf into the station waiting room. Stood Awkwardly, hovering as I waited and tried not to get in the way. Station master began to chat to me explaining the whole bookshelf thing and I must surely have won an award for the most unenthusiastic “oh. wow.” ever. Awkward one sided conversation was awkward. Arrived in Liverpool at 12:10pm. Trudged to University. Barely any free spaces in lecture hall, ended up sitting next to the four people I would have really liked not to. Stared at floor, out the window, took my time taking my books out my bag, wishing they wouldn’t notice me. They noticed me. Had awkward non-conversation with them. Wished the floor would swallow me whole. Lecture start. Stared at the front of the room with all the appearance of listening intently to my lecturer, letting all the information wash over me. Let it hit me that I’m back, this is it. Everything is just the same. Had 10 minute break after an hour of listening to lecturer attempting to motivate us to work hard- “Think of the future! Think of your great paycheck when you eventually become an engineer! There is a lack of engineers, you know! THINK OF THE FUTURE!” (I don’t think he was succeeding). Stood up, realised I had no one to talk to or anywhere to go. Pulled out phone and pretended to be texting. Break over. Counted down the hours, the minutes. Lecture over. Walked to shop in a quest for chocolate. Walked back to uni. Lecture two. New lecturer who has a really thick accent and has a weird teaching technique- one of those teachers who believe everyone should participate and screw different learning styles. New lecturer who doesn’t ask you to be quiet or pay attention just says “Hello” a lot then repeats it until we shut up “Hello, Hello, HELLO“. It reminded me of this weird thing my old head master used to do in the end of term assemblies: he’d raise his hand, expecting everyone to raise their hand and shut up in the process. It was ineffective, more amusing than something that would gain respect and silence, as is the hello guy’s way of getting us to shut up. Stared at front and put my “I’m listening intently not falling asleep with my eyes open” face on again as lecturer launched into a lecture without any introduction to what we are learning. Felt like I was attempting to learn advanced french when I didn’t even know the basics. Counted down the hours, then minutes. Lecture over. Raced to train station. Sank into my seat on the train and stared out the window, feeling tired and vaguely depressed. Went to bed too late after hours of fucking around doing nothing. Woke up after getting two or 3 hours sleep. Dark, cold, the incessant ringing of my alarm too loud in the silence. Rushed around trying to get ready, practically ran to the station. Train. Then university. Labs. Found myself working with someone I actually liked, for once. Labs are something I always dread but today they were OK. We finished early. Sat around discussing work with two people in my class for a bit until tutorial. Tutorial over and then on the Train, again. Stared enviously at guy across the aisle’s lunch; burger king, or perhaps McDonald’s. Looked down miserably at my own measly cheese sandwich, slightly stale, and three biscuits. Guy from my class came on train, we met eyes and I looked away, buried my face into my magazine and hoped he didn’t see me. Eventually, home.

Two days pass in the blink of an eye. Every day is just the same.

I’m tired, and I’m bored.

University has been OK though. After all that end of holidays panic, you end up slipping back into the routine pretty easily…

Listening To: JUJU- Girls never give up
mood: exhausted

“Dont hesitate, take your first step forward”

What do you know, it’s already the 9th of January of 2011.

Nothing feels different you know.

I had my first and only exam on the 6th of January. It crept up on me a little too quickly. It was somewhat strange waking up at 6am again and trudging through the dark, quiet streets at 7am to get to the train station, sitting on the train again, being in Liverpool again. Then there was the exam. The good? Was the atmosphere. University exams are different from A levels. At A levels you’d have to put your bag in a different room, hand in your phone, find where you’re sitting. Then when you’re finally sitting down you’d end up sitting there for a good 10/20 minutes as the papers are handed out and then listening to the examiners as they went through all the rules and what you had to do, as well as listen to the rules of all the other exams. Meanwhile you’re just sitting there getting more and more nervous wanting the exam to just start already. They don’t baby you like that at University. The papers are put out before hand. You go in, put your bag down at the front, turn your phone off (and you can keep it on you) and you sit wherever you want. You fill out a little form with your details, put your student ID on the desk, fill out the front of the paper. Once everyone is there and settled the exam just starts. Its much more efficient and involved a lot less waiting around getting nervous (the only wait was before the exam cos I got there at 9am when the exam started at 9:30am). The exam itself wasn’t great; the questions were strange. And I got really bored about half way through cos I was already 97% finished which left me with an hour to check, recheck, stare round at other people, recheck, stare at the law posters on the walls, recheck, watch my lecturers as they paced through the rows and passed by me, recheck. It was awfully dull, and I was exhausted due to the fact I couldn’t sleep the night before and I had to wake up so early, leaving me surviving on two hours of sleep and some cereal.

In short I probably did badly but I was too tired to really care.

Afterwards I went shopping, wanting to get some bargains in the jan sales. It started out fun and got terribly boring. I don’t find shopping fun. Sure, I love that feeling when you find that perfect item for the perfect price but its such a chore to find it. I hate searching for items, finding something but its not the right price or the right size or it looks really terrible. Not to mention I was jeans shopping which meant lugging 10 pairs of jeans (really just 3 different styles in a variety of colors) into the changing rooms, cutting it down to 3 for further consideration, gathering all my stuff and going out the changing room, getting more styles and colors and sizes, rinse and repeat. It was annoying and tedious. After two hours I ended up with one pair of jeans and a top. Not successful as I would have liked but not bad.

The past few days have been spent trying to ignore the fact that I go back to university on Monday and that I have two pieces of coursework in for Friday I have yet to complete.

I’m not really looking forward to starting university again tomorrow.

Listening To: KRA - artman
mood: bored

Keep Your Head Down

DBSK, Keep Your Head Down (live) – RETURN OF THE KINGS. This performance is just perfect. I’m getting amazing flashbacks of the mirotic comeback and how dbsk took kpop by storm. I think homin are going to do the same. The thing about dbsk is that as a group they were amazing but that was due partly to the fact that each member was in his own right talented and charismatic. On their own, or rather as a group of two and three they can still dominate the stage. Homin’s stage presence is incredible in this performance. They nail the dance and the song sounds almost exactly like the recording- except they are singing live (I think?). I admit I didn’t love the song at first- rather there were bits I loved and bits that made me frown (in particular the return of yunho’s nasally rapping ala purple line) but I’ve grown to love it. I’ve come to the conclusion that this song is really powerful, it suits them and it certainly makes a statement. I’m so happy Homin are back and I can’t wait to see future performances.

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